Grandpa (1930-2016)

I really wanted to start blogging regularly. I really did. But then, just before my exam, my grandpa started dying. He lived almost a week after my exam, and passed away December 10th.

I’ve kept busy by being at work almost every day (except the two days I used on the funeral and the travel time there, and one day where I just sat down doing nothing), which helped, since I didn’t have time to think. My mind is exhausted, but I’m doing okay now. Or, as okay as one can be after losing a grandparent, I guess.

I’m just going to use some time to do self-care and try to survive Christmas-time in the retail business. Maybe I’ll post something here. Maybe not. We’ll see.

The End of an Era

I just quit both my grocery store jobs. I was done with the Sunday only job last month. I have the rest of December left at my other job. It’s gonna be weird, I’ve worked there for two years. I’m gonna miss the coworkers, and some of the customers I see every time I go there.

I’m not gonna miss how some people look at grocery shop workers, though. That was getting a bit old, to be honest. “You work as a cashier at a grocery shop? Well, you’ve got to be stupid. Smart people can get better jobs.”

To be honest, I liked working at a grocery store. I just don’t work well without random hours, since I’ve noticed I need a structured week plan to be happy. But I love helping customers. I love the challenge to get a frowning customer to smile by being a fellow human. It gives me joy.

But the end of my grocery adventure marks the start of a new adventure. Starting January, I will spend the first school semester at a laboratory, checking if food and drinking water is safe. I won’t get any pay, and I think the official scholarship provider in Norway might still hate me for failing over and over again in the past, so I might go 5 months with no pay. But it will be an experience, in which I will learn a lot of neat stuff, so even though we have to eat cardboard boxes for half a year, I think my education will be worth it.

I hope.

I am the Worst Blogger

Hopefully, I’ll make more than two posts and not disappear for almost a year again.

But then again, I have a working laptop again. Blogging on my phone just isn’t the same. And my gaming PC, well, somehow I don’t like writing on it. I have no idea why.

So if everything goes as planned, and I don’t forget that I have a blog again, I might be posting here from time to time.

I don’t want to be a grownup

Especially when being a grownup means I’ll have to go to work six out of seven days in a row, and the only day I have off I have to go to bloody university and pay attention when I want to spend the day on the couch watching youtube. Or play Subnautica.

Tomorrow, I have a lecture at 12:30, then work at 18:00. Luckily, I have both Friday and Saturday off this week (Two days in a row? What kind of vile sorcery is this?), so I have a tiny chance to recharge a bit.

Today I was at work from 8 to 16, and considering I had six hours of total sleep last night, divided into two-hour units, it’s a miracle I was still standing when I was done. I even attended role playing afterwards, although I left halfway through the thing, since I’m exhausted.

So with my alarm set for 10:00 tomorrow, I’m gonna put away my phone now and read until I fall asleep. One more day to get through. Then some glorious days off.

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*peeks in*

Uh, hello?

Does anyone still follow this blog?

Did anyone follow this blog in the first place?

I sure forgot all about it, though, so I’m not gonna be mad if y’all did, too.

I’ll try to be a better blogger. I can’t promise anything, since I know myself (finally), but I’ll try.

A kind of update of my life since last time I remembered this blog;

  • Still working in the grocery shop.
  • Still living in the apartment with the horrible shared WiFi solution. The Internet is slightly better, though. Most of the time.
  • Still haven’t killed my husband. And we’ve lived together for ten years now. (I do love him a lot, although it might not seem like it.)
  • 2015 was a below average year.
  • January 2016 was shitty. Everyone died, and I had too much work and school at the same time.
  • I feel safe behind the wheel now. So I think I’ve got the whole driving a car deal down.
  • I started school again. While still working. This might or might not be a good idea.
  • I became an aunt, and decided to become a cool aunt that brings Lego and go to fun museums.
  • This winter’s snow came in January. In such a way that I felt winter went all “oh shit, I forgot the snow!” and we got almost two feet of it in three days.
  • I decided that I’ll never live another place where pets are prohibited. I need a kitty.

There’s probably more shit that happened. If it’s important, I’ll probably mention it in another post later.

Today’s shopping haul + freebies

Since I was on a “collect birthday freebies” trip around town today, and actually spent money to boot, here are the things I dragged home with me today.

wpid-20150408_134245.jpgFour chocolate-chip buns! It was supposed to be three buns and a cookie, but they were all out of cookies. Also, not pictured because I drank ’em, two cups of coffee. The coffee wasn’t amazing, but it was free, had caffeine in it, and was kinda okay with milk.

wpid-20150408_134305.jpgA bag of knitting coffee! I was offered a bag of coffee, tea or spice at a kitchen utensil type shop because of my birthday. I chose coffee, because my tea cabinet is already too full, and I’m not a big fan of pre-mixed spice mixes. Also, caffeine. And knitting.

wpid-20150408_134332.jpgTo round off the free stuff part of the post, here’s a green apple I got from some people promoting Specsavers, I think. I love green apples, so this was appreciated.

wpid-20150408_134351.jpgThis was almost free. One of the local convenience store chains had this deal where they lowered the price of this beverage with 5 NOK every day, until it becomes free tomorrow. I paid 5 NOK for this, and the price in an ordinary grocery shop is just around 20 NOK or over, so it was still an amazing deal. I can’t wait until tomorrow, since there are only 1000 bottles in this thing nationwide, and I’m at work tomorrow morning.

wpid-20150408_134409.jpgThese were not free, and since I bought them at 7-eleven they were quite expensive. But I’ve never tasted the chocolate, and I can’t remember if this particular Fanta is good or not, so I bought them. I think I’ve tasted the Fanta before, at least.

wpid-20150408_134427.jpgA notebook. I fell in love with this when I saw it. It’s gonna be my new bullet journal, hopefully when the old one is full. I might have trouble waiting until then, though. We’ll see.

wpid-20150408_134540.jpgAnd lastly, nine rolls of washi tape. It’s an obsession, and I might be addicted. But they are so pretty! Also, a pen that can write on almost everything. Or so the woman in the shop said. We will see about that.

So there you have it. Now I’m gonna eat one of the buns and drink one of the sodas to build up morale for work. I really don’t want to go to work today, but since I’m a grown-up, I have to. Being a grown-up sucks sometimes.

Time flies…

Since last you saw our heroine:
– The whole apartment got cleaned up.
– Husband celebrated his birthday.
– I worked alot.
– I celebrated my birthday.
– We celebrated both Ostara and easter, because why the hell not, and because celebrating stuff is fun.
–¬† One duck and one goose was eaten during these four celebrations, plus lamb carr√© and an awesome meal at my fav grill restaurant.
– Also, I started my bullet journal, which might or might not be the right organisational tool for me.
– I forgot I even had a blog.

I Just Read: Dracula (1897)

I got the post-book blues bad. It’s been a long time since I had them this bad. All because I read Dracula.

I’ve tried to read Dracula before, a couple of years ago. I was turned off by the constant shifts in the book between letters, diaries and paper articles, which left me confused. This time, though, I managed to get used to it halfway through the book, so it wasn’t that bad this time. I also knew about it when I started reading the book.

And what a book! It is so beautiful.

Listen to them. Children of the night. What music they make

Most of you know the story of Dracula, I guess. The old Transylvanian count that wants to go to London. And all that follows.

Welcome to my house! Enter freely. Go safely, and leave something of the happiness you bring!

The language is so beautiful. It has a certain poetic thing that only books up until sometime during the first part of the 1900s has. It makes the book a bit harder to read, because you need to use more of your attention to get those small details. But Dracula is a really good book, so it is definitely worth the effort.

And now, after finishing it, I have a serious case of the post-book blues.

Ugh.

You know what? I might’ve been working too much lately.

During the two last weeks, I’ve had three days off (not counting today, since today is a brand new week and all), and I’m tired. I haven’t been doing much else than working, eating, watching something on the Internet, then sleeping. And before 2015, I’ve never had a full-time job, first due to anxiety/depression, and then due to there not being enough work to do at work (or economy) to hire me full-time.

And suddenly, I started in a new job, someone took a five week vacation, and I suddenly practically worked a full-time job.

This week, though, the person who was on a vacation came back. I have two days of work on my schedule for this week. It’s so weird. And I have no idea of what to do with my time, since I’m used to be at work for five to nine hours a day, usually eight hours.

Well, the apartment do need a proper clean-up, since I’m messy as hell, and have been totally spent, energy-wise, when I’ve been at home. But come on. Let’s be realistic here. Me? Cleaning up?

I mean, I should, but it’s so bloody hard to start. And it’s so messy here now, I have no idea where to begin.

I will never become a proper housewife. A wife, maybe. But no housewife.

In other news, the no sweets thing is going fine. I’m craving stuff like crazy, but after that one incident with the cake, I’ve managed to stay the course. And there’s only two weeks left until I can eat sweets again. I’ve become semi-addicted to oranges, though. And I have a persimmon and a rambutan lying around my kitchen for me to enjoy sometime soon. The persimmon will probably be consumed today. I’ve never tasted persimmon before, I hope it’s good. Rambutan, on the other hand, is delicious. The only problem is that the fruit part is a bit hard to gnaw off the stone, without getting parts of the stone’s outer layer in my mouth. I have a thing against all kinds of fruit stones, and a lot of larger seeds. But seeing that rambutans are fun to skin, and they’re really ugly before you skin them, they are also fun to eat.

Now, however, I’m on my period. I could kill for chocolate. But I won’t. Because it’s only two weeks left.

Books!

I love books. I’ve loved books since I learned how to read. Actually, I think my love affair with books started even earlier than that, since my dad used to read me stories at bed time when I was a child.

This year, our local writer’s group decided to make a book club. Which is all kinds of awesome, because I get to read some books I might not have picked up otherwise. In January, we read the Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern, which I totally loved, by the way. The book for February is Bram Stoker’s Dracula. Which I own, but never read. So I have it somewhere, but I can’t find it.

Luckily, Dracula is old enough to be on Project Gutenberg, which is a page where you can download free and legal ebooks, mostly older works where the copyright has expired, so if I don’t find it, I don’t have to buy another copy.

I can hear you say “But Milladamen, why don’t you just borrow it at the library?” Well, if I borrow books from the library, it’s almost never free. I forget to deliver it on time, and I get fees. So that’s out of the question.

Later this year, we will be reading Elantris by Brandon Sanderson, the Martian by Andy Weir, Watership Down by Richard Adams and Frankenstein by Mary Shelley. The good thing is that I own two of these (Elantris and Watership Down), so I’ll only have to buy one or two of these. Frankenstein is probably old enough to be available for free, since it’s written in 1818, but I think I want to own it, too. It’s a classic, after all, and if I hate it, I can probably give it away, or BookCross it, or something. I don’t think I’ll hate it, though.

In other news, while looking for Dracula today, I came over a couple of other books I’d messed away and been looking for for a while, namely MythOS by Kelly McCullough (book four of a series I was reading, and had to stop reading, because book four was messed away), and His Majesty’s Dragon by Naomi Novik, which I was going to read before Christmas, but then I couldn’t find it. The problem now is that I’ll have to postpone these two, since I’m currently reading the Island by Victoria Hislop, and need to read Dracula before March. Oh, and the fact that we have Foxglove Summer by Ben Aaronovitch in the house now, and I’m looking forward to that one like crazy. Husband needs to read it first, though, since I’m on a book queue, and he reads really fast. And then, there is Elantris to read in March. I have no idea when I’ll get to read something not on this list, but hey.

I also need to re-read the Stardoc series by S.L. Viehl soon, too. And Rachel Caine’s Weather Warden series. And more of Wen Spencer’s books. And then there’s the ordeal about this whole “Get ten friends to recommend one book each, and read them” thing, which is the reason why I’m reading Hislop right now in the first place.

I am also doing a reading challenge I found over at Facebook (link to PDF here), but then again, the two books I’ve finished this year made me check off five items on that list, since I’m not running hardcore, and can check off more than one thing if the items fit the book I’ve read. And the Island has already given me the right to check off at least two more, and I’ve barely even started the book.

I’ve also started the second draft of one of the novels I’m writing. I’ve never second-drafted anything before, so it’s kind of exciting. And when the second draft is done, people are going to read my book! This scares me senseless.

And in the middle of all this, there’s work, which has been crazy lately. I thought I would get one day a week of work. Instead, I get at least four days a week for another two weeks, since people are on vacation. And after that, well, let’s just say that I’m one of the few that are available daytime on weekdays, so if anyone goes absent for some reason or another, I’m there.