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Christmas eve 2014

I love Christmas eve. It’s the best eve of the year.

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Gift! I’m so looking forward to reading this!

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New Samsung phone, since the old one is dying. And I’m kind of surprised that husband spent this much money on me, since I bought him a gaming mouse, which is pricey, but not smart phone pricey.

Also, woolen underwear and a huge woolen sweater. I love warm clothing, so I was really excited about that, too.

My dad and stepmother had made a picture book from our wedding, that was also really awesome. No picture of that, since husband is on the pictures, and he doesn’t want to be on my blog.

Also, money. Money is always appreciated.

And that was the Christmas loot I got this year. I am extremely grateful. <3

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Christmas tree! It’s so pretty!

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Reflective close up of tree decoration.

I am tired. And really stuffed, though it’s almost three hours since we ate dinner. A perfectly ordinary, yet perfect Christmas eve.

Work work

I haven’t really blogged for a while now, and I’m kind of sorry for that. But only kind of.

You see, work picked up again. A lot of stuff happens in December. Everyone wants my attention. And I have to spend some quality time with my husband in the middle of all this.

My mood has also been all over the place. But then again, it’s my first yuletide without antidepressants. If I’m not crying over something beautiful every day during these December days, I’m surprised.

But there are news. I have gotten myself a job. And I start in January. It’s very few hours, but it seems like they always need people, so I hope there will be extra hours, and also more regular shifts I can get later on. Fingers crossed!

Because of this new job, though, I’ve been haunted by anxiety over my choice. What if I don’t get enough hours? What if this is a horrible idea? I have decided to try not to listen to these voices, and instead cling to the voice that says “you’ll have to start somewhere. ”

Because I do have to start somewhere.